yea.. that tends to be a real eye opener for most of us.. as it is a physical manifestation of our abilities.. .lol

and by the way.. no one on here will think you're crazy.. unless all the rest of us are too.. but then again we won't notice as for most of us crazy is normal.. hahaha

We've all did some strange things or experienced strange phenomena that has become the norm in our worlds..

By the way b, thank you for sharing..

things like this still give me a fright no matter how often it happens. pfftt it is weird tho.

when you wrote, specifically, "fit to live" you felt anger while typing it didn't you?

^.^ this is the interesting thing. When the witch was in my head, I didn't feel weak. And, she's long out of it now. Now, I admit, I did indeed feel angry. However, one core belief I have maintained in myself because of thos e"predatory instincts" I recognized in myself as a child is that it will never solve anything to attck or kill a person. So, as I going through the reason I am angry at a person... if I can't find a reason not to be angry, I go throguh the possibilities instead, of what would happen if I did act on my emotions.
As far as prey goes, this is where I percieve my prey ideas to come from. We must eat to live. In order to eat, we must prey on something.
Humans preay on what many people consider to be lesser lifeforms.
Now, that goes one step up in the financial world. However, it seems to me that most of the big business guys tend to forget those peopel that are stalkng and killing financially are really people with their own friends, dreams, and houses. That is what I mean by evolving beyond the simpel version of it. What's that saying? "there's no such thing as a free lunch."
As far as the pedatorial instincts go, I was simply stating that every human has them at the base level, most of them are rooted in the subconcious, as you said. They still affect our actions in many ways. And, in today's society, there is more than one way to prey on people. The game has changed, but the basic rules are the same, so to say. I formed this idea mostly from observing other people, and then, until a few months ago, used it to help contain myself because I did not liek the thought of costing other peopel in any way, physically or financially. Now, it hardly matters, because, where I am, I would hurt myself before I woudl hurt someone else physically... and, even at that, it takes a logn time to get me to that point... and, financially, though very powerful, is nothing but an illusion of power. So, any financial injury would be false, as I see it. One big reason I don't feel like I should hurt people physical is because, I know I have made mistakes, and that other peopel also make mistakes. Persoanlly, there isn't much I can do to find out what's going on in their head. However, so long as the chance for them to repent exists, it's not my place to judge them. Now, I can say that, but I will admit, since I admit that I am human, that, is said killer/rapist did somethign to someone I held dear, I'd likely tear them up. However, that's an understandable sentiment, I am sure, and less the product of repressed emotions, or more the product of wisdom.
Also, where I am now, I don't think I could positively change society. Anything I do will jsut collapse in on itself at some point, like every man-made government will at some point. Furthermore, it seems to me that there are other people that have very good ideas about where to go after this one is done. I might contribute to the whole at some point... and maybe I won't. *shrugs* it hardly matters, politics, like finances, are merely a ghost, even though it is an effective survival mechanism.
And yes, you are definitely right. It's liek the definition of a sciopath, I think... a homocidial maniac who is a product of the environment, rather than the product of being mentally defective. Here's the issue with that.... This society we live in was made to allow freedom to everyone. Granted, there are some things that aren't available. But, fo rthe most part, being an American is being free.
However, it seems we are getting more and more of these sociopaths as the society grows.
It begs the question, is the right answer more freedom, or is the right answer more control?
Another major issue, as it seems to me, is the fact that all people are predators, some more aware, some less. The problem with this is that predators tend to try and preserve their own space for only themselves. This is a conclusion I have come to from observing outside of myself. It also seems that the people best able to overcome that base instinct are those that recognize that they are, in essence, predators, and are therefore aware as to hwo to curb the appetite.
The others tend to be ones that regulate it to the back of their minds and ignore it, but continue to exclude people that aren't part of their own group.
about 4/5 of families are like that... they'll take a family member's side over anyone else who isn't part of the family. Which is why is translates so deep into society and social groups. To me, it's these types of groups that are most destructive to society, because they reinforce the isolation most people feel.
Which comes down to this.... it seems that, in my mind, the core problems with society are the very family types it holds in high regard... the ones that focus on their own family beyond everything else. The term for it is conditional love.
Now, in all that, the only time I felt a hint of anger was when I typed "The others tend to be ones that regulate it to the back of their minds and ignore it, but continue to exclude people that aren't part of their own group." but it really wasn't much anger at all. I can understand why peopel would hide stuff liek that, it's easier to be happy when you ignore what you do to other people.
Or, at least, that's what it seems liek to me.
I'm glad we agree on counseling and medication ^.^